a poem
possess me quickly
like high spiced food
a flood
cold clear water
fire sweeping through
backdraft
like sex
like sudden illness
down with a fever
felled like a tree
white pine
ax murderer
like death
a stroke
massive heart attack
concentrate
stick and rub
under pressure
diamondeap
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Fire and Ice
Monday, February 9, 2009
time is a wolf
time is a wolf in a cave
a few beats away
from my heart’s twelve
where you will be blamed
because I was not found
your head
on my heart
stops
like a wolf
in its cave
you swore it was the last time
and so did I
we both swore
the last
time I said it’s forever
and you said it was
but we both knew
it was a wolf
in a cave
I want to know
will I move past your body
when you die
or will my own half-cells
die with you
when I was a girl
you told me time was forever
and still wolves found me
in dreams
when your teeth are gone
will they still eat me
or fall from your mouth
when you throw up the bones
will you leave them to me
or will you always need them
as weapons for wolves
and dreamseap
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
hairline fracture
the ribs are a fragile cage
for her heart’s urgings
your boney skullcap
hot brain
firing nerves
eyes, brow, hands
tongue, lashings of teeth-
scarred knuckle, muscle
control, those abs
pects, the six-pack
punches
through bruised organs
she hears their music
in her ears and heart’s distal
pulse, your ancient cadence
fists
face
feinting
bloodlines traced
back to the cave
beneath fractured ridges
into the boneeap
Friday, September 19, 2008
Sons
Male of Elizabeth
for my sons, and my grandson, not-yet-bornI wake in the morning
his voice in my body
a language I can’t follow
a crescendo, a leaky instrument
he was a boy with a voice
that betrayed him
a sharp blade
for an Adam’s apple and words
that hit the window like sleet
he left me remembering
the quiet thrum of rain
the day he was born
the blade that saved him
after a dive to grab his waving arms
I still tread
in that water and blood
of the child who was named
male of Elizabeth
the patchwork of our bodies
living, breathing
speaking broken languagesphoto by Sally Mann
Sunday, August 17, 2008
What they see by the light of candles
I was the old woman
visible to neighbours
only in conversations
on front porches
at the ends of driveways
glancing back to my darkened house
where I watched them from windows
onto the world, unseen because you can’t see inside
when the lights are out
they wonder when there is no garbage
on Sunday night
nor on Monday morning when the trucks pass by
they ask if I’m alive in here
or so I imagine
I’ll be found one day
when someone follows a nose
to the body, disintegration
escaping cracks in the mortar
when they find me, they’ll understand
something about garbage
the heap beside my unmade bed
the heap on the dining room table
shit overflowing the litter box
electricity shut off months before
those unopened envelopes in my mailbox
I know what they’ll ask
when the money is found
under the mattress
no one wants to touch
defeat
how you can’t stop someone
intent on not meeting the neighbours
under any light but that cast by candles
waving shadows on the bedroom walleap
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Happy with little and still
her eyes are cloudy
the cataracts
she won’t have removed
because of the scalpel
the children
won’t understand
there can be no knives
in this life now
light has moved
from the eye to her face
happy with little
and still, living there
the laughter of her children’s children
rises over the lake
and she catches
the father of each in the flame
of memory, every bright hair of them
gleaming in the suneap